Tuesday, March 29, 2011

just another sunday

Last Sunday Luke woke up tired and cranky. Our attempts to get dressed and out the door were failing miserably. I told him we would miss early church if he didn't hurry. He usually strongly prefers early church, because his favorite girl, Neely (age 18), is at early church and lately we've been sitting with her and her cool mom. But he asked if we could go to late church today. We did and it was nice not making the made dash to get out the door by 7:40. So en route to church Luke asked if he could go to children's worship. He hasn't been interested in participating in children's worship in months. I agreed he could go and I would stay with him. While in children's ministry he helped with communion, said a prayer, and helped in the Bible story. * * Here's Nehemiah showing how he feels about the temple walls being destroyed. I'm so appreciative of the great children's worship volunteers including and just providing a wonderful, enriching experience for all the children. * After Luke's performance, I noticed one of Luke's former Sunday School teachers sitting in the back of the room. Going to such a big church, it's been ages since I've seen her. She had Luke in Bible class from 2 1/2--3 1/2. She came over to talk about Luke's performance with tears in her eyes, amazed at his progress. * Boy did I need that dose of perspective! Because lately I'm struggling. Luke is challenging me daily in new ways. He is a precious sweet boy one moment, and the next he's angrily arguing about something ridiculous and declaring how mean I am. I've tried everything to correct and discipline. And what seems the most effective is ignoring him and not acknowledging him until his words are kind and he is calm. * And that is NOT what I want to do. I want to react. And I have. And I know from experience it is not the solution. But that's what I want to do. * And I've realized, yet again, that there is no coasting in parenting Luke. Every day must be filled with structure and intentional living. And perhaps you're thinking "that's true with any child." Well, I don't know a lot about parenting a typical child, but in observing my friends and family members I just don't think it is essential with a typical child. Of course every child benefits from structure, but is it isn't essential to get through the day? If mom has a migraine and can't go through the normal morning routine and hands off to dad, does a typical child scream and refuse to put on his shirt before school? * Oh he's come so far. But am I allowed to say that these remaining obstacles make me tired? * Have I blogged about my sweet friend Sara? She is in the fight of her life, for her life. And God is changing lives through her story. Read her words and be encouraged. Her latest post was about God's healing not in the quick way she'd hope, but little by little. And I completely believe God has healed Luke and he is my miracle, my day by day, little by little miracle. * So I will choose to not compare my family to others. I will savor the sweetness of my boy and help him through the challenges. Like Sunday night we saw my friend and coworker Katie. I was telling her about Luke coming to work with me on Friday of spring break when she was out of town. I was telling her about the emails Luke was sending and she said, "Luke, you're hired!" And he said, "Katie, you're lowered!" Savor!

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Amy I can see how upsetting your trials can be. Cody was the real one that life had to be just so, or he went totally off the charts. All the meals had to be at the same time - no change at all was the rule at our house for several years. Even today, he has to have every little thing just right and in order. And, unfortunatley (sp) most days I reacted and would catch myself and say to myself that is not what I am supposed to be doing. And then we would have to have seperate time, I just told him that mama needed time to just relax and not be angry at what he was doing. Some days that worked and other days, it was just not in the cards, so to speak. You are doing a great job and please hang in there! God loves you and so do I.
Jan

Sara said...

Do you have any idea how much your little by little miracle boy encourages me, and the way you've walked in faith down this road with him encourages me? I think not. keep on keepin' on, sweet Amy! I don't think it is by accident that me and Luke are birthday buddies. We are both on a journey, and all of his/your small victories give me hope for my own!